i was recently told "one thing about you is you just looooove jennifer"
well, DUH!
i totally love myself. i think that is so important, especially as a curvy woman, to have a lot of self love. i like looking good, i enjoy pampering myself and looking pretty. we have one body and one life -- may as well take full advantage of that!
it took me some time to get to this point. i didn't really grow into my body until my early 20's. it was like puberty hit me and my body had to catch up. i used to worry too much about what people thought of me and of my looks, now, quite frankly, i do not care. i like to push the envelope when i can -- not quite as far as lady gaga, but hey... a lady can dream!
there's definitely a fine line between loving yourself and being self-absorbed. i'd like to think i'm much more of the first than the latter. some may disagree, but i've found that those who do are generally self-loathing.
i have 3 dates this week and i'm excited about getting back out there are meeting new people. i'm hoping they are confident and happy too... i have no patience for debbie downers.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
a decade later
march 25th, 2000 ~ 7am - driving home from maryland, i fell asleep driving on 495 (on cruise control) and flipped my car into a ditch. my 3 week old car was totaled and i ended up on a stretcher and in the emergency room. prognosis: broken collarbone, furious parents, and no car.
and the beginning of a teenage angst downward spiral that ended in april 2003.
see, ten years ago, when i was seventeen, i was the polar opposite of the woman i am today. at seventeen i was very sad, incredibly self-conscious, and awkward. i didn't have many friends and would go home from school most days and cry. i was floating through life, waiting and hoping and dreaming that things could be different, that i could be someone else.
it's strange to think back and see how i was then compared to now. as i think back to that horrible accident that happened ten years ago today, i am thankful because it makes what i have now so much more special.
and i am incredibly grateful that mistakes i made didn't leave lasting marks on my adult life.
-phir
and the beginning of a teenage angst downward spiral that ended in april 2003.
see, ten years ago, when i was seventeen, i was the polar opposite of the woman i am today. at seventeen i was very sad, incredibly self-conscious, and awkward. i didn't have many friends and would go home from school most days and cry. i was floating through life, waiting and hoping and dreaming that things could be different, that i could be someone else.
it's strange to think back and see how i was then compared to now. as i think back to that horrible accident that happened ten years ago today, i am thankful because it makes what i have now so much more special.
and i am incredibly grateful that mistakes i made didn't leave lasting marks on my adult life.
-phir
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